Clip 3: Espoused theory vs theory-in-use

Delwynne:

When I first started facilitating, I was just learning by trial and error, basically, and from what the models were that I’d seen in the past. And I thought that when I sat with lead teachers that I was co-constructing a new knowledge and new learning. I really thought that that’s what was happening.

But – the big but is – when we went back to the video – and this was huge dissonance for me – when we went back to the video and really analysed the video, what was happening, I was being so manipulating it was shaming. It was shaming. I was using questions to direct the person I was working with to the answers that I wanted. So what we were co-constructing was really, I was making them construct my reality, and then expecting them to carry it out. And it just didn’t happen.

The interesting thing was I looked at the video myself and saw bits and pieces, and then I went to a couple of my friends. One of them works in Rapuara for Career Path, for Careers with Ministry, and the other one is in Te Puni Kōkiri. And when I worked with them on my video, I saw so much more than I ever would have on my own. And it was only through them and their talking that I came to the conclusion about how manipulating I was being.